Sep 20, 2012

Saying Goodbye To Summer and Learning To Move On


My Grams is the third in from the left. Such a classic beauty. As you can tell I have her to thank for my eyes and undying love of red lipstick. 

I’m going to be completely honest with you. This summer has not been one teensy eensie bit of what I hoped it would have been. In actuality I feel robbed of my long summer nights and warm summer days. I’ve spent much of my summer completely usurped by something that just doesn’t matter in the big scheme of things, and I’ve let myself get to a point where I feel completely drained physically, emotionally and spiritually. But I’m ready to make a change. A big huge hairy scary change. I’m done with seeing special moments pass me by because I don’t have the time or energy to enjoy them. I’m done trying to tell myself that I’m satisfied when I’m clearly not. I’m done trying to make someone else happy at the expense of my own well-being. I can feel huge changes coming, and you know what, for the first time in a long time I feel hope. Hope! Oh sweet glorious hope how I’ve missed you! So even though I’m saying goodbye to summer I can’t help but feel like I’m saying hello to endless possibilities. And summer, promise me that we'll catch up next year, I really missed you!?

(Sorry if this is ridiculously vague, I promise I’ll share more when the time is right.)

14 comments :

  1. this photo is SO special!
    i want all of their bathing suits and big smiles :)

    xo the egg out west.

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  2. No idea what you're talking about, but I can totally relate to the feeling of not being completely happy with your life. Good luck, with whatever it is!

    xo Emily
    www.bupster.blogspot.com

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  3. loved this post. thanks for sharing. cheers to hope! :)

    xx
    jess
    www.goldenswank.blogspot.com

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  4. Oh I hear you girl! Without knowing the specifics, I too am ready for a change, there's no better time to get going on one than the changing of the seasons.

    xoxo andrea
    www.yesterdaystomorrowblog.com

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  5. i love this photo, it is so fantastic. I keep meaning to digitise all my mums old photos of my nan and family. Your gran looks amazing, the whole photo is wonderful. We;re so used to seeing these types of retro photos now its great to see them when they have a personal connection.
    Well done you for making the change, its a great time of the year to do it!

    dpx


    www.inanityandthegirl.com

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  6. Isn't change terrifyingly wonderful?

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  7. I love that photo!! They are all so beautiful!! And so are you! Xo
    megthecoolgirl.blogspot.com

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  8. Isn't it strange - you look so together and so friggen' HAPPY - but you're not? I am so glad you have turned a corner, and thanks for sharing - blogworld always makes me feels like everyone is so together and so happy, and I am running behind trying to catach the skirt-tails....

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  9. I've felt that way this summer. I haven't really gotten to enjoy it. I'm glad you're ready to take advantage of what's left though!

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  10. Sarah, I had completely the same experience this summer. Summer comes with high expectations, but it certainly ended up becoming more of a challenging time for me that came with a lot of growing pains. Here's to a new, fabulous fall for both of us!

    Also- recently discovered your blog and I love it! That picture of your grandmother is FIERCE!

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  11. You are so right, we deserve to be happy, to have energy left for the things we love and doing things that put smiles on our faces. Hoping your dreams come true!

    lyckoland.blogg.se

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  12. Aw, I'm sorry to hear you've had a rough time lately, but it sounds like you're ready to move on and come skipping out the other side. You know we're all rooting for you!

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  13. Big changes sounds interesting! Can't wait to see what's in store for you. Adulthood is not always the funnest, is it? Hope your fall/winter isn't as busy and you can take the time to enjoy it!

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  14. That's such a beautiful photograph! I can relate about being too exhausted to even enjoy life. You have inspired me to try to stop sitting by and get out there. Thank you!

    Kristi
    http://www.messofadreamerdesign.blogspot.com

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