Oct 16, 2012

On Happy-ness


Have you ever been completely living in the moment and thought to yourself," I have to remember this exact event. I have to remember every detail of this. Every person here, every laugh, every smile. I have to remember how happy I am in this very moment." Those moments feel like absolutely nothing in the world could make you more complete, like you would burst at the seams if even one more ounce of joy entered into your body. Your fingers and toes tingle and everything around you gets a bit hazy as you start to feel nostalgic. It's happiness like that, that I always seem to be searching for. I don’t want it to only be a part of my relationships, family, and loved ones. I want it to be in everything I do. Earlier this year I accepted a job knowing full well that I would be suppressing a lot of who I am as a person and what makes me happy. I figured that I could make myself happy after work. Note to all people in this world. This is a terrible, terrible idea. I ended up feeling unfulfilled, wondering what if I had gone for my dreams and  trying to figure out what I was doing wrong, why such a huge part of me was not happy. That’s why this summer was so hard for me. I spent long night after long night in the office feeling empty, when really I should have been thriving because I was getting all of this responsibility and learning all sorts of cray cray new things. Finally one night it hit me, I needed to finally have a little bit of faith in myself and go after what I really love. That’s when this post came about, and really, sorry it was so vague. I just wasn’t really sure what I was going to do, and how I was going to go about doing it, I just knew without a doubt that I wasn’t where I should be. It was so clear, and I have no clue why it took me eight months to figure it out.

So this brings me to now. I’ve never felt so excited for my future and ready for this huge change in my life. I’m going back to school for Fashion Design with the goal of designing my own clothing line and starting a business. And I just feel like stars are going to burst out of my toes if I keep it in for one second longer! So yes, big changes are coming. Am I terrified? Absolutely. Am I excited? Without a doubt. Am I happy? I’m tingly toes and bursting at the seams happy.

Oh yeah, and I’m searching for a new job. Nbd right J

28 comments :

  1. yeah! how exciting! maybe we'll see you on project runway someday...you're going to be great

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  2. You go girl! You only have one life, right? So be happy with it! I would certainly buy your clothes!

    Hope that you find a job super soon!

    xoxo,
    Laura
    http://lauraisthriftingthroughlife.blogspot.com/

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  3. Those pictures are so sweet. I don't know if you've heard of "My Mom the Style Icon" (momstyleicons.blogspot.com) but these pictures TOTALLY look like something from that blog! Very vintage-y and "Aw, my mom was such a cutie back in the day!"ish. Check out the blog, I think you'd love it! (And I am in NO way affiliated with it, so I'm not just hocking my blog around. lol.)

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  4. Nordstrom is hiring for seasonal right now. Want me to talk to my manager?

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  5. I've been following your blog for over a year now and you will absolutely be an incredible designer. It always blows my mind how you take these thrift store finds and transform then into beauties. Obviously making a big change is scary but way-to-go in believing in yourself and being brave enough to go for it! You're an inspiration :)

    nikki

    nbadorestyle.blogspot.com

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  6. How exciting! I can't wait to hear about it!

    xo Emily
    www.bupster.blogspot.com

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  7. Congrats! Love that you are living a dream on your terms.

    Marie @
    Lemondrop ViNtAge

    I am having a fabulous giveaway right here.

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  8. good luck! you are going to be great!!! <3

    happyleeliving.blogspot.com

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  9. Hooray! Way to turn your dreams into plans. :)

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  10. Good luck! And I so know that feeling. :) These pictures are adorable!

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  11. That's so exciting!!! Congrats!!

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  12. how exciting for you! i totally agree - it is so important for us to remember that this is our life NOW! we have to stop thinking in terms of "when" and just go for our dreams! no one knows us better then we do and we can tell when we are in the right place! i love that feeling!! praying that you are reminded of this excitement even when doubt may creep in!!

    xo dilyn
    dilynd.blogspot.com

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  13. This post just had me so excited for you!! What an incredible opportunity, having the chance to go back to school and really make your dreams a reality! You can do it girl! You've inspired me to really look into my life too!
    And good luck searching for a new job!
    xo TJ

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  14. Good for you. I've been there, everyday was a bad day at work and I felt like i left a piece of my sanity at work every.single.day. Quitting was the best thing I had done in a LONG time. I am sure with your passion and love for fashion you will be incredibly successful.

    Go you.

    LindsayJEveryday.blogspot.com

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  15. you are going to be so ridiculously successful! you're talented and charming and have a design perspective no one else can quite put their needle on. i can't wait to see everything you're going create--both in fabric and in life. all of the luck in the world to you, darling!

    writeslikeagirlblog.blogspot.com

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  16. So excited for this new adventure for you!!! :)

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  17. Happy glad and happy all over again - this sounds like you! I wish wish wish you could get a job as a stylist becoz you live it and you ARE more than many others. Anyhow you will be great, so glad you are rushing towards your dream.

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  18. So excited for you and that dog is sooo cute xxxx

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  19. Congrats! That was a big decision to make and I'm glad you're happy & excited about it! You'll be great!

    xx, Katrina
    Sparkle is a Color

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  20. So excited and proud of you! You will be amazing.

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  21. OMG, I'm soooooooooooo excited and proud of you! I know I never comment on your blog (sorry about that) but I do follow you and read all of your posts. You are such an inspiration with this post of following your dreams. Congratulations on being so brave and setting such a good example.

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  22. So exciting! I was wondering what that post was about, but I've totally been there before. Congratulations on the exciting new stuff coming your way.

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  23. So happy for you and all those wonderful things coming your way darling. I feel the same exact way... life has so much for me to look forwards to as of right now and I'm loving every second of it. From big move to Madison, awesome new job, and recent engagement i'm seriously on cloud 9 ;).
    By the way, those pictures are adorable... you are the absolute cutest!

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  24. Congrautlations on realising where you were going wrong, and an enormous high five from all the way over this side of the pond, for following your dreams!

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  25. Cute look! Loving your knit! Loving your celeb couples! Too funny! Zooey and JGL! Match made in heaven!

    xx
    Giovanna
    www.oliveandanarrow.com

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  26. Good for you.

    What is your degree in now?

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  27. This is such fantastic news! You will be incredible. I know it's scary, but it's amazing that you're taking a leap. I don't even "know" you in real life, but I know that you can do anything you put your mind to. Go get it, girl!

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  28. Congrats on your revelation! it takes guts. My dad tells me we are young enough to screw up at least 10 times and still bounch back so keep on trying. This next road might be "the one"!
    HOTPINKstyle

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