Matt and I chose to get induced, which in and of itself is an entirely different story, basically my doctors thought Jocelyn was a huge chunker of a baby and that going past my due date might just do me in, so we induced the day before my due date. It was the weirdest feeling ever, the night before we had Jocelyn, sitting there in the movie theatre watching Saving Mrs. Banks, I was going through contractions the entire movie and thinking, I'm going to have a daughter tomorrow. I'm going to be a mom tomorrow. After the movie Matt and I walked hand in hand, me in the only thing that fit comfortably, my sweats and slippers, and I slowly waddled out to the car, Matt patiently walking next to me. The drive home was so quiet, we were both just taking it all in. We were going to be parents tomorrow.
We got to the hospital at 5:00 am (which should be illegal the day you have a baby). We checked in and they induced me right away. At first going through contractions I was like....this isn't so bad....I won't need an epidural for this! Yeah well by 1:00 pm I was doubled over in pain just begging Matt for an epidural while I waited patiently for the anestesiologist. By the time the anestesiologist came my contractions were right on top of each other, I felt like I couldn't even breathe between them. The wind got knocked out of me every other minute and the pain shot up my back.The only thing I can think of to describe it is that it feels like someone is trying to break your back...from all directions. Okay that's not a great description but let's just go with it.
Finally I got the epidural (after two tries of putting it in, not fun, lots of not fun all around) and I fell asleep right away. After my last trimester of being constantly uncomfortable and not being able to sleep well, when my lower half went numb I fell asleep instantly. Epidurals come highly recommended in my book. You know my moto, don't be a champ TAKE THE DRUGS!! Okay so that's not my moto but it is now!
As I said, completely passed out and in heaven, and there I stayed for a couple of hours until all of the sudden I was woken up and people were coming in and out of the room, moving things, prepping things, changing my bed into a delivery table and telling me that I was ready to go and could start pushing.
Now it's not like I'd ever pushed a baby out of me before so when they told me to push, I was like...ummmm okay....like this?? I obviously wasn't pushing right because the nurse coaching me through the delivery was like, so your baby is pretty much taking one step forward and two steps backward when you push, we may have to do a c section. Apparently that was all I needed to hear to be terrified enough to get that baby out of me because then I pushed three more times and there Jocelyn was! I'm pretty sure it was a ploy to literally scare the baby out of me, Matt said I got really wide eyed and he could tell that I was going to get down to business and make it happen.
All of the sudden the nurse and Matt looked at each other and went WOAH simultaneously and the nurse told me not to push at all because the doctor wasn't ready yet.
That is possibly the dumbest thing that anybody could ever tell a woman. I could have sneezed and Jocelyn would have come out then and there and then they decide to tell me to not push the human out of me that I've been trying to push out of my body for hours, yeah, dumbest thing ever. Nurses should be banned from saying that.
The doctor moseyed in and played receiver, literally I didn't even push, he just caught and yelled TOUCHDOWN!! Okay I may be exaggerating a bit.
And all of the sudden there she was. This perfect little girl with tons of BLONDE HAIR??? (so not expecting that!!) and long long fingers that I could hold onto for hours and dark gray eyes and really, SHE WAS PERFECT, all of her was totally and utterly perfect.
Jocelyn Anne McCammon
6 lbs 13 Ounces
Born 2/27 at 2:27